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Terry Choyce's avatar

Your are a wonderful, loving, creative human.

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Bob Watt's avatar

Thank you so much for your Riff, poem and song. I’ll only comment on your song as I have been spent for so long I’ve come to the conclusion that being truly human one must attempt to save oneself so that our compassionate nature may truly blossom. I guess the question is: Who cares for the caregiver as one’s family falls apart, the strangers we meet along the way are suffering and the world go to war except for the war we should all be fighting against climate change. I’m so very, very tired…. Unfortunately, love is not enough to save the world. It takes action….

Running on Fumes at the MacEwen’s Gas Station

in Riverside South Ottawa

Help someone’s soul heal.

Rumi

These days I’m often running on fumes, like the day at dusk in early March

when I pulled into MacEwen’s Gas Station. I was instantly aware

that the driver of the grey van in the adjacent fuelling lane

was staring at me. Her hands and pleading eyes

motioned me to come closer. It was only

then that I noticed the inside of her

van overflowing with her life—

her salvaged possessions,

her shattered dreams,

her broken life.

Looking directly into my eyes she said,

I live in this van. I need help.

I’m not a bad person.

I opened my wallet, but I was unable to fully acknowledge

her pain— perhaps share a meal, listen to her story.

I opened my wallet and my heart to her

suffering, but she was in need

of so much more than

I was capable

of giving.

These days it’s hard holding myself together, let alone the strangers I meet

along the way. Often I’m outta gas, running on fumes. It’s at times like

these when I know it's my soul that needs healing. Now is a time

when I want nothing more than to escape. In my reverie

I imagine myself soaring in sacred silence under

magnificent white cumulus clouds, rising

on thermals high above the suffering

and the shattered dreams of

our broken

world.

March 1, 2023

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